A prayer

Please, I ask a small thing….

Help me to help myself.

At times I feel I’m a misfit, not meant for this world…

Never up to one’s goals…

Not up to the bar.

At times I feel torn and not enough in a lot of parts of my life. I’m at a crossroads. I know the directions I want to do, but I’m not sure if I’m able to make a living from it and I don’t want to fail. I’m geared to do good and be good, and I desire so much to help with the communities I am part of that took so long for me to find.

I really want to be part of this whole thing but fear and anxiety always are there and procrastination too. I try my best and sometimes I feel it’s not enough and sometimes I don’t feel I’m worthy, but I do know my heart. I am a good person. I am worthy to love and be loved. I am open minded and consistent and everything and nothing at the same time.

That’s how we own the commonality of our being. Some of us are geared that way. To see multiple levels and nuances all at the same time. The greatest gift I got was to learn I’m not alone in this, there are others like me.